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Listening to...: Uninvited by Alanis Morissette

Graphics by SublimeTragedy... lyrics taken from Uninvited by Alanis Morissette...
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Poem - Eternity Found

November 16th, 2006 (12:07 pm)

Eternity Found

Upon a sea of endless night a silent siren sits,
Pondering and wondering, a world filled of what ifs.
A darkened sky, a darkened soul, alone now in her head
She sits and softly, gently cries for days filled once with red.
Days of sunshine light and hope, are now alas forgotten
As death is all that fills her now.

An age ago the world was new, and everything had shine,
Yet now regret her only friend, through all the rest of time.
An endless world of endless night
Immortal nature now to fight.
A tantalizing smell she knows,
A liquid red, like wine it flows.

And all the world now her sudden empire,
As it only is, to a lonely vampire.

((Random scribble written during an English Class.))


May 12th, 2006 (01:55 am)

I got bored, and so I found these tests that Melissa had... And I took them.

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Fun eh? Yeah, I'm totally done now.

Raine [userpic]


March 21st, 2006 (12:24 am)


So Lee didn't make it up from SUU for spring break last week. Which was a bummer, but on the plus side, Alan and I managed to clean up my basement, so now I have room for lots of stuff. We're putting in a fountain tomorrow. We're weird people.

I was hoping that today he'd break up with his boyfriend, because then we'd get to spend more best friend time together, but they worked it out. It took them an hour and a half, but they did. I'm selfish, I wished it hadn't.

I did a Tarot reading yesterday, and apparently I'm going to get a new job soon. No idea where. My last day at Wal-mart was last friday but I didn't go. They're lucky I made it to any of my days last week, because I just didn't want to go at all.

Also according to the cards, a man is supposed to enter my life soon. Early Aprilish... Yay. Alone sucks.

I posted up chapter one of Faithless. Okay so that's not the actual title of the book, but it's damn catchy. It's a dual first person POV novel, that will develop into at least a three book series. It's up on ny_beginnings . I have another bit, which was so fun to write, but I'm not sure that it's going to fit into chapter two, and that makes me sad. I'm also remembering that I need to make a new layout for the New York series. (aka the Faithless chronicles) cause the current page is lazy and half assed. -sigh- Perhaps tomorrow after the fountain.

I have a job interview on wednesday, for the ice cream parlour that's opening up. How exciting huh? How am I supposed to use my writing skills there? I also have a job already lined up for the fall, as an educational fascilitator. Basically I run the broadcast equipment for the local college, and do a little bit of secretary work at the same time. But I get to sit in on college classes and get seven dollars an hour for it. That's more than Wal-mart was paying me, but is that really a surprise to anyone?

So Alan's moving to Oregon in April, and that's sad. I'm going to miss him. He's my best friend, the Blake to my Faith... that makes more sense if you read my book... well later on in it, because Blake hasn't shown up yet in it, and believe me, I am so ready to jump the gun and throw him in. He's one of my favorite characters to write.

So my book, or I should say, our book, because I write it with Amanda, it really needs some work with the world building. I mean, we've basically stolen the world history from the Anita Blake vampire hunter series and that's not going to work if I want to actually publish it. I'm thinking that it just needs a little bit of tinkering with the alternate history. it shouldn't be that complicated right? But of course it will be. And that'll suck.

And speaking of sucking, the Lee thing. He was all ready to come up for the break, and his effing car breaks on him. I hate that. And it's totally not fair. But I think I'm over the whole Lee thing. I mean, I haven't gotten to talk to him in a while, and I think the whole Tarot card guy thing is totally not him.

Amanda says Lee is a Blake. I don't want a Blake. I have Alan for that, kinda. I want a Tristan. The whole knight in shining armor, white hat, chivalrous, guy that you can take home to mommy and daddy and at the same time, has that passion and sensuality that I'm looking for. Somehow I do not see Lee being that sort of guy. But then I don't really know him.

Not that I know myself. I did a spell on the night of the full moon, and it was supposed to help me be a better person, but I think the very last thing was what fucked it all up. It said something along the lines of 'let me be the person I want to be, even if it doesn't match all these other things.' And the problem with that is, since I don't know what I want to be, I can't exactly be that, now can I?

And now I have a song clip in my head. 'And I wish that I could see, Who I wanna be.' So I guess that'll become a song later. Carole did want to work on a bunch of band crap tomorrow. Trust her to take the one day we can all hang out and have fun and turn it into band crap. We never end up working on band stuff anyways.

And note to self, when you work on graphics next, make sure you're on a lower resolution.

And speaking of making stuff, I so need to find a copy of the charmed symbol for when we burn our spirit board. Cause the one I have now is too tiny. Maybe that'll be something I can use when I make a layout. I do need like four of them…

But for now all I need is sleep. It's late and I have to help build a fountain tomorrow. So,

Good Night and Good Luck.


Raine [userpic]


February 24th, 2006 (12:43 am)

Feeling kinda... : tired
Listening to...: Uninvited by Alanis Morissette

On a lighter note. I got paid today, made $264.35 I have about twenty left. I had to pay bills. $65 to Verizon, and $70-something to Maurice's until I bought earrings which kicked it up to $83. Then I bought lunch for two at McDonalds $7 And then I had to buy a wedding present and I got some earrings for my cartilage piercing while i still have an employee discount. That was about twenty bucks, and then I bought a CD. I got Kelly Clarkson's first CD Thankful. I wanted to get the live Evanescence album too, but we must have sent them back at Wal-mart because we didn't have any. I'm looking at the Wal-mart in Evanston tomorrow.

Tomorrow/today (it is 1:30am) I get to meet my niece Megan for the first time. She was born on February fourth. My dad went up the night/day she was born and took my mom up on another day. He's seen her twice. Tomorrow will be Mom's second time visiting Megan Faith. It's not fair. But I get to see her tomorrow. I also get to have dinner at my favorite restaurant and I might get to visit the bookstore. Tomorrow will be a very good day indeed.

On another downer note, I looked at my Graphics in 800 by 600, and they look HUGE. I personally have our computer set to like 1152 by 864 so they look fine. Maybe I'll have to pay more attention the next time I design some graphics.

Speaking of Graphics I really need to find more stuff with which to make graphics, because at the moment my collection is sad. I've run out of stuff to play with.

And I need to fix my babbling problem. I'll go bug Lee and Amanda. That sounds good.



Raine [userpic]

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February 22nd, 2006 (05:20 am)
Listening to...: Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson

Amazing. So far my day went well. I quit my job at Wal-mart. My last day will be the Seventeenth of March, Alan didn't move to Oregon (yet), and Amanda introduced me to this really cool guy named Lee. Well we chatted, we haven't actually met. He seems really interesting. Of course I probably won't tell Amanda that.

Trinity wasn't on today, so I didn't get anymore Paint Shop Pro stuff from her, but I did find some cool stuff online anyways and I made a new Icon. I don't know how well it goes with the color scheme so I'm using it as my user pic so I can find out.

I'm not really sure about it, but I think that the banner needs a saying on it. It's just nagging at me. 'I'm not done. I'm not Done. I'm not Done!' so maybe I'll think about it and look at it later.

I really like the quote on the new icon. I made it up myself but it certainly fits. I think I ran out of stuff to say because for some stupid reason I'm paranoid about someone else reading this... I want to keep it public for the icon, but I have other stuff I want to say.

I'll make a friend's only entry later.


Raine [userpic]

My Journal

February 21st, 2006 (05:58 am)

Well this is my new LJ, for personal use. Hopefully I'll actually use it. That seems very likely since my best friend, who I usually rant to, will be moving to Oregon today. The graphics here are made by me, and thanks to my friend Trinity who gave me textures and such, they don't suck. Yay.

Well, basically this entry is to test out how the journal looks. And considering that at the moment it totally lacks a color scheme and only has icons, user-pic and a header. I'm thinking it looks good. Why don't you tell me what you think?


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